The journey of TSL Family begin~

Hi world, it's been long time since I ever pens down anything about our relationship in this blog.

I will try my best to recoup my desire in blogging, the passion in blogging anythingggggggggggg that is happening in my routine. I still remember I used to blog about my daily activities, my work, my feeling, my lover, my family, you named it, you get it!

And I guess now will need to add another category for my blogging category, "my small family" with newly 2 members addition.  Introducing my eldest daughter, Ellysia Tang Shin Le, 26 months & Valerynn Tang Shin Lynn, 7 months.

I still couldn't believe that I am a mother of 2 now, after 4 years of my marriage with beloved hubby, Vincent. Tying our knot at year of 29th September (ohhh~ another week is our 4th years anniversary...) . Some of you may say "Wow, that's fast to settle with kids even after 4 years".

Yah, seriously, I also think it's quite fast, but what happen has happened. Let's cherish this, and me for being a mother of 2 at age of 32, it's somehow a bless, so when I'm 50 yrs old, my kids already 20yrs++. Isn't that good, so I could enjoy more of "ME" time with my old-kiak-kiak husband that time? Haha!

The arrival of Ellysia
Let's rewind the moment back 26 months back, when Ellysia Tang was born at Columbia hospital. I still remember, being a new mummy, I'm still clueless on how a delivery should / will be, despite I have been reading many of the related article / forum way much earlier before that.

I do not know how contraction will be, most of the people says, it's exactly like Menstrual Pain (MP) that women experiences during menstruation. Just the differences is the pain may be 10 or 20 times more pain as usual pain. In which I totally could not imagine at all, how it should feel.

I do not know how long the labor pain will be, as many mummies experiences long hours before the baby really popped out. My eldest sister admitted for 36 hours before the  baby decided to come out, and I was like, "are you serious?! 36 hours, its like close to 3 days?".

I do not know how much the bill will gonna cost me, as I know the standard should be around 4k-5k in which already much enough to korek a big hole from our saving. That is why I will not want to have any , like any medication at all, to reduce the potential spike up on our bill, from our expected budgeted amount.

I do not know how Vincent will react when to be in the labor room with me, watching the bloody hell me from delivering the baby. Some people says their husband may get phobia for seeing the moment. I'm ready to take this risk, and hope he won't scare after that.

Despite having so many "I do not know....", we just go ahead and pop the baby. Based on what I could recall (oiii~ sudah 26 months away, some memory faded away ahahahh), I decided to be induced despite I only 1 cm dilated, mainly because I have dued at 39 weeks, and based on my "placenta classification Stage I" I will be induced at week 40 anyway.

So just decided to go ahead, and 'force' the baby out at week 39. The insertion of Pitocin to my vagina started about 1pm (after being admitted), and continue stays at ward room walking non stop until 6pm. The doctor checked on the dilation, and it's only dilated to 2 cm.. wtf! I was like wtf, after so many hours, I only dilated 1 cm! (*&^%$#@#$%^&*

Then the doctor asked me, whether I wanted to put another pitocin for induction, then I say, let's see another few hours. Mainly, additional pitocin means additional money!! #moneyfliessaway #kiamElaine

So continue to walk and walk and walk, and all out of sudden around 8pm, I heard a loud "POP!" sound from my bottom area. And I can sense the water is flowing out fast, and the most scary wave coming in. I have started strong contraction with the gap of 2-3 minutes once.

Immediately, I walked back to the labor room, and the midwife confirmed my water bag has burst. There goes my night mare , for knowing how it felt on what is contraction. That's the moment, when you couldn't even say a word, when the contraction kicks in. I contracted for straight 4 hours++, and dilated to 8-9cm about 1250pm.

The contraction feeling really not play play de... coz when it came, my whole body shivers non-stop and couldn't make a move or speak a word, and wish to beat / punch my stomach to stop the pain.  Me myself also couldn't do anything about it, apatah lagi for Vincent who can only watch by my side, trying his best to massage and comfort me by hugging me throughout the contraction. There was one moment I push his body / hand away, asking him NOT TO TOUCH ME (the more he touch me, the more pain I am, ya.. that's how sensitive a women who are in damn shit pain during contraction can behave! DONT MESS WITH ME!)

The feeling of contraction not only the feeling of menstrual pain (stomach pain) , but also the urge of releasing the pee /poo most of the time. I felt wanted to go toilet to pee / poo, but ended I did not manage to get anything. I remember, I went to the toilet like every 5-10 minutes, just because I felt better after seated on the toilet bowl.

There is one visit, it ended with bleeding flowing out , and leak down towards my thigh and leg. That's when I got strapped back to the bed, not allowing to stand or move, and just contracting while lying on the bed. Contracting while laying on the bed is the most bad position , as you will felt pain all over the back and buttock / hip, and u cannot turn flexibly and need to stand the pain every 2-3 minutes. Everytime when the contraction started, I will yell at Vincent, "LAI LIAOOO! (coming in), LAI LIAOOOOO!!! Please help.. OMG!". However, as I said, nothing much Vincent could do, but just to stare looking at me emotionless and helpless.

Throughout this session, I was being offered for the drug (I couldn't remember the name - but it's a drip for fasten the dilation process I pressume), by the midwife. But being rejected constantly from me. #kiamMummy #swearforDruglessDelivery

I also being offered a drug known as 'Laughing Gas'. However, I opt for this as I remember May mentioned that this gas is not expensive to opt for. However, I found this gas not help much in reducing the pain or fasten the dilation. I just remember I keep on sniffing the gas non-stop but still feel the pain.

Ok la.. let's fast forward to 1250pm, when midwife has confirmed I has dilated aboout 9cm, then she call upon the gynae to sambut my baby.  I was so relief when see the gynae, thinking in my heart, finally, I'm ready and I can end this suffer very very very soon, because I believe she will help to get her out!

However, the torture not ending yet, as despite of how hard I tried to push, Ellysia still reluctant to come out (ok should not blame her! she is innocent! hahha). Mainly I think I'm lacking of knowledge on how to push the baby out (Helo! I'm first time mummy ok, not know is absolutely normal!). But, now I know the mistakes that I have done, in which is using too much energy to push WHEN IS NOT BEING contracted. I scream and yell all the way, every since the doctor ask me to push for the 1st time. Imagine, how exhausted I am. The secret is ONLY TO PUSH when it is contracted, and refill the energy when it's not contracted.

Not only that, I also quite stress during the contractions, stress until like I said, wanted to punch squeeze every possible things that i can grab. Be it Vincent's hand, pillow, bed rail, wall, name it! But it's also wrong, as this will not allow you to relax and impact the dilation period.

I have tried to push for about 10 minutes, and still fail to push her out. Out of no choice, the gynae offered to "help", and at that moment , the moment when I have running out of energy and voice (when I'm clueless what's going on, too stress to think), I accepted and say "OK!"

Then she starts explaining to Vincent that she is going to use a tool for 'Vacumm Extraction (VE)' to suck the baby head out. Then the midwife unwrap the new vacumm tool and put into the vagina and suck the baby out. Within less than few minutes, I felt the large stone being removed from my body (the feeling is like when you manage to pop the stubborn pimple!). She is out! She is finally out with the help of the vacumm and the 'good' thing about that vacum is.. it definitely help alot, so I no nede to push anymore.

The 'coolest' thing about the vacumm is that it COST US RM700 for that few minute suction of SHUANG moment! That's the story on how Ellysia being delivered naturally! She was born at the weight of 3.12kg with the height / length of 50cm.

The arrival of Valerynn
Let's rewind the moment to 7 months back (aww, this one still fresh in mind!), to mesmerize the up and down moments delivering Valerynn.

Valerynn is 38 weeks that time, when I has scheduled for checkup. 

The labor journey started when I notice some little wet on my panty, in which being a non experiences mother who never sees water bag liquid before (not even during my first pregnancy), are not so sure it's water bag leakage, vaginal surcharge, urine or just purely sweat. 😅 

So schedule for a day earlier checkup

Thought of just coming for regular checkup when we tried to reach abit earlier for number registration. FYI, we only late 10mins for number registration and we gotten 15! Crazy. Normally we gotten top 5 one (thanks to hubby who purposely wakes up at 530am, crawl with half awake eyes to hospital to queue for number).

So in my heart I was thinking, surely take us long before reaching our turns. So I attempt to play cheat yo... By telling the nurse that I suspect water bag leakage.

Despite in fact I'm not so sure if it's leakage. 😂 maybe it memang just sweat!

So the nurse quickly said, send me to do the CTG to monitor the baby heart beat and contraction frequency and wanted send me to LABOR room. Then I was thinking "oh shit, am I making the right move???"

Then everything continues with the flows when doctor came and suggested to an early induce since my baby is ready to be out from Owen anyway (she already week 38).

Then the dilemma of discussing "induce or not induce" between Vincent and I. Took us a while to get to a conclusion because we had some worries that the induction may /may not works that might be ended with C-Sect! #killmeifitdoes #expensive

So, we finally decided to chiong ahhhh!!! Go with it, and trust my instinct that I can push it through #firstexperience

And since I have not even dilate more than 3cm, I can only be given the table prostin for induce. I was given around 10am++.

And wait wait for 4 hours, and surprisingly I had dilated to 4cm when doctor came to check around 2pm. I'm so happy la! Because last time I took me 7 hours to dilate to 3cm only. #jumpinghappily #goodstartMonkeyyear

Then continue being given the drip to speed up the dilation... And then the real contractions starts to kicks in.. Quite pain as the frequency of each one is in less than 2 mins. I was being offered for another pain killer cum cervics softening drug called "petidin"

This drug meant to gives us the drowsy feeling (meant for relaxing up the muscles and cervics so the donations can kicks in faster).

At first I was quite skeptical on this drug, and keep on rejecting it saying that I may or can sustain the pain though fully dilation. Of course at the same time, I'm worry on the cost of the injection, so I keep on telling the midwife "I can I can tahan, but maybe u can check for me the price of it first" #memangsibehkiammummy

So ended she came back

And tells me the injection will cost at RM30.50 ... Some more quote "ONLY" after that.. Hahahaha.. Surely this midwife is thinking and cursing "this mummy really Sibeh calculative and kiam! "

So after knowing the price of this, so just give it a shot la, since so cheap. Vincent who originally freaking worry also turns his standpoint and said "oh, so cheap ah... Then get it la, alang alang few thousands for the cost of delivery Liao". #funnyhusband #askiamasmummy

But all of these only happens after 1hour and 30mins, and quess what??? I did not even dilated 1 single Cm... WTF! #painfornothing

OK, continue the story after being given the petidin injection. Everything has changed, whereby I started to feel sleepy and drowsy. So I automatically fall asleep (half asleep la) when there is no contraction and yah as explain this makes me relax and rest during the 1-2minutes internal.

Only when the contraction kicks in, I need to wake myself up.

And sustain the pain for another 1-2minutes, then continue to sleep. And this continues from 4pm until I deliver.

And in a blink of eyes, I started to feel the pooing moments and I heard the midwife keep on saying 5-6cm already...

Then few more contractions, "can call doctor already". Then then.. Ya... I can't wait to push her out already...

When the doctor arrives, everyone gets ready for the final pushes to get the baby out.

Doctor : hand gloves - CHECKED
Midwifes : leg stand

Also CHECKED

Vincent : Video cam - CHECKED
Elaine : wide leg open - CHECKED

SO everything is ready, apa lagi.. Push lo!

1st push - I try think positively that I could poop her out by one breath.. But couldn't have enough stamina so half way cut through even before the baby crowning. Sigh. The baby just crawl back inside.

2nd push - this time surprisingly I manage to push it through until the baby crowns and continues with 2nd breath to push the rest of her body. And pooped!!!

Once baby is out, Valerynn being brought to my arms and everything just like a dream.. And when Valerynn resting on my chest, I'm still thinking and wondering "that's it? It's all over? I'm done? " #stillunbelievable

I'm so happy.. Ya it ended so smoothly... When everything just went so smoothly...

No vacum like last time (in which cost us freaking 700 add on for the bill), just because mummy couldn't pushes.
No laughing gas since being replace by the petidin.. 

Then Valerynn being brought to side table for quick suction and cleaning before brought over to my chest again.

And yes, I knows it's for real and I can rest liao.. ☺

And here we are as parent again for our 2nd princess, Valerynn Tang Shin Lynn. She was born on 19th Feb 2016, at the weight of 2.98kgs and height of 47cm.

Welcome to the world honey, and let's our TSL family journey began!