:: Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh ::

I hate to get the feeling of being left alone thinking and wondering again. Something happened yesterday (which I will not share it here), and it started when I had the intention to be honest on what I feel. But I can feel something is different after I took that initiative of telling him. And I’m not sure what, so make me crunching my mind alone here GUESSING what he’s thinking at the point of time.

We don’t talk much for that night when he sent me back yesterday. Am I being sensitive or what? He just drove all the while without taking the initiative to hold my hand (or when I tried to), or taking the initiative to find a topic to talk about. Maybe he’s too tired or he just doesn’t want to talk about it. I wanted to ask “why you act so differently?” or “Shall I be the one who should worry, instead of you?” or “Did I said something wrong?” or “You got anything to tell me?”. Anyway, I feel so tired to talk about anything or to think about anything or use my brain which might lead to some nonsense thoughts, so I just hang up after 5-10 minutes on the phone with him before sleep. And I’m quite tired that night also.

And now I start wondering am I talking too much? Am I thinking too much? Did I ask too much? Did I say too much? I don’t like when someone act so differently all out of sudden and I will start to have the thoughts that I might did something wrong or he’s changing. And I don’t dare to ask because I worry it will make thing worst. Voice it out->> might make thing worst, silent ->> might not know what’s happening. So should I keep quiet or ask? I hate this dilemma which I thought shouldn’t be happening to any couple who just started dating. Isn’t it?

Continue with the bad mood on Friday, this is the 1st time I felt sad or a point of time I feel not happy or confuse. It’s just a small matter as small as about the matter of posting Facebook photo album to be view by our friends. I created a photo album which holds all our pictures regardless it’s being taken during our weekdays/weekends outing, outing with his friends, anything which can be used to mesmerize our sweet dating memories.

We’ve been dating for like a month now since my birthday, and we sort of took quite a lot of photos. Knowing me, who likes to take photos does keep them in a Facebook album, but due to some circumstances I privatized it to be viewed only by me and him. Up to a certain level, I will ask him whether he’s ready if I decided to reveal the photo album to be view by my friends.
Personally, if you ask me, I’m having the perception I wish I could let my friends, my family know about our relationship maybe through photos. So they can know how happy I am being with him, how enjoyed my life with him, how good he treat me, everything about us. Not trying to be high profile, or trying to show off to everyone, or trying to outstand myself or him, or trying to secure him by letting the whole world know that he is my boyfriend “*virtual shouting* VINCENT IS MINE!!!”. I just purely simply want to share how happy I am.

Sigh… But he intermittently said want to reveal the album through facebook, sometime saying doesn’t want, and sometime act so aggressively uploading our photos to his photo album. Until today, he mentioned again he blacklisted someone from viewing the album. Wth… what he want actually? Want or don’t want? I’m so confused the real reason why he acts like this. He said he always want to lay low profile, not to share too much to public. But why he sometime want and sometime don’t want? Play play ah? Sighhh..Anyway, he said sorry and said not to repeat again. Ok, I forgive him and we “friend” back but with my photo album being restricted ONLY TO MYSELF! Not even to him, this is as a punishment for him. Who ask him to play around kejap say want, kejap say don’t want.

:: Saturday leisure ::

I guess this blog will be documenting our dating milestones since ever I’ve been jotting down every moments including our dating during weekends, what we have done during weekdays, what movie we watched, where we go, what we do, bla bla bla.. But you won’t be expecting any intimate journal here ok! Hahahahahah!

Continue with that; let’s continue with our last Saturday leisure’s activity. Since he made an appointment with Perodua to service his car at 8:30am (Ya ya, so damn early right!) Hahahahah! This is to ensure we fully utilize our Saturday meeting with each other ok! Have you heard “time is gold!” LOL!

Continue continue… So we decided to start our Saturday with an early morning breakfast at nearby Chinese “kopitiam”, choosing “wan tan mee” and coffee to kick off our day! Coincidently, we bumped into Vellan, our ex-colleague whom also ex-spansioner. I bet he hardly recognize me since I’m wearing cap which really cover most of my eyes and maybe due to my role as small potato in Spansion last time also. LOL!

Waited for 2 and a half hour, completed the car service at 11:30am. Too sleepy I guess, I fall asleep on the couch while having him watching my saliva drooling from my mouth! Hahahahah! Ok, I was just joking. I don’t drool when sleeping ok. Then he drove me back and I proceed to continue my tuition class from 12-2pm.

Went back to his house to get prepare to go out for our Saturday outing, taking bath, styling hair, make up and so on. Opss..Not to forget camwhoring with our leng leng face before go out. :)

#1 Me me me ... Opssss... The heavy bag make my shirt so out of place...


#2 Us in the room, with light lightning from the window


#3 try a closer view


#4 This is the best but abit blur

#5 Camwhore while on the way

We had a very late lunch as we reach Sunway Pyramid quite late close to 3:30-4:00pm so we decided to walk around stand the hunger as late as possible so we can eat our early dinner and directly go for movie.

Again, crunching our brain, squeezing our brain juice thinking what to eat for our dinner, somehow we pass by PappaRich. So we choose PappaRich regardless there are so many other restaurant or café there. Yeap, both of us normally opt for simplicity and speed! We will just go in to any restaurant especially when we are super duper hungry. We ordered “nasi lemak”, “curry mee” and cendol as our dinner, and it taste super duper yummy (maybe we are super hungry due to super early breakfast and skipped lunch).

#6 The menu for the PappaRich


#7 PappaRich Sunway Pyramid


#8 Let's take another photo before our dinner, SMILE!!! ^^


#9 My turn my turn!


#10 Us again~ I like to camwhore alot... If we manage to get one nice one..I think we tried 5-6 shots... =.=""" Pariah Sony T700...


#11 Very yummmmmyyy nasi Lemak!! Yummmyyyy I finish it all! Terror huh!


#12 And the cendol...yummyyyyyyyyy tooo!!


#13 Vincent's Curry Mee


#14 Ok, another food photoshoot


#15 Your turn! :)


#16 Fuyohhhhhhhhh!!!!! Before and after.... Lick until the bone, man! ^^


#17 And his part also kering kontang too! LOL!

We book for Knight and Day, starring Tom Cruise and Cameron Diaz. Ainne and Hui Juin strongly recommend this movie saying it’s a good movie to watch. Unfortunately, it’s quite a boring movie, even more boring when Vincent keep on dozing out (ie: sleeping/napping) throughout the movie. I’m the one who insist to see this movie saying excitingly how good how funny this movie is and who knows… =.=” He sleep in the movie, which is quite disappointing because the movie really boring. Anyway, we did manage to finish the movie. Haahahahh!

Considering the movie finished quite early, around 8something, so we decided to continue our Saturday leisure day by going to Setia Alam's pasar malam! I've been there twice and guess what, it rain everytime I went there. But suprisingly, not this time when I go with Vincent. Of course being cocky him, he said "So next time, you need to bring me along to any pasar malam, to make sure no rain for that night!". HAHAHHAHHA! Can can.... *in heart thinking, you pay for every stuff I buy from pasar malam ma can lo!* HAHAHAHHAHA! I wonder will he show me "SWEAT" face or say "Ok, then you go yourself!!!" if i said like that to him! HAHAHHAAH!

:: Morning and Night Guardian Angel ::

I’m so lucky now to have him to be the 1st one to greet me “Morning Babe” and having to be the 1st one to greet me “Goodnight Babe” every night before sleep.

Not sure when we started this practice, but it’s already become part of routines in my daily life to have him sending me sms every 7:30am sending me a morning “virtual” kiss, letting me to laze for another 15 minutes on my bed and having him calling me every 7:45am every morning waking me up just in case I oversleep. Isn’t that’s the best gift that you can get from your boyfriend, showing he care to bother whether you can wake up or not, or showing how wish he could hear your voice you every morning. And considering the factor that he’s not staying with you and you will not be having him next giving u a warm morning kiss to you when you open your eyes upon waking up. (How I wish I could see him every morning not virtually but in reality every minute every second ^^)

Nowadays, we also get used to the routine calling each other with lights off, pc off, notebook off everything off but not our mind and phone so we can talk to each other while lying on the bed concentrating and focus chatting to each other. We used to talk up to 1 hour, 2 hours and the highest record talks up to 3 hours in a night initially. Unfortunately, now reduce to 30 minutes and some time up to 1 hour due to we need to work the next day and due to the factor we did meet up each other every day every night (almost). I guess we started to run out of topics to talk about, but I know we still hope to hear each other voice’s before we doze out every night even though it’s just 5-10 minutes.

A simple sms every morning, quick morning short phone call before sleep or a routine goodnight sms greeting every night is enough to make me feel appreciated. Even though I’m not sure how long he can keep this practice or maybe he won’t be doing this after a week, a month or a year, but at least I know he is willing to do it at this point of time. *thinking in heart hoping he willing to do that for the rest of his life. Raising hand shouting Vincent! Vincent! You hear me or not! HAHHAHAHAHAH*

Thank you dear, for being my guardian angel every day. I’m seriously happy for having you to be part of my life now.

:: When will you say I do?"

This question popped out all out of sudden and had a feel to blog it out while I can remember. Maybe because I'm old enough (OMG!!! Yes, I'm old liao T_T hahahahaha!!). All the while I’m having the perception or mindset that marriages thingy are something to be discussed after a relationship stabilize after at least 3-4-5-6 years, or until both of mentally, physically and financially ready for marriage. But now I realize when you’re comfortable to talk about it, then you will talk about it unintentionally or unconsciously. So Vincent and I talk about it on and off during our conversation (regardless it’s for the sake of just finding a topic to talk about or we really started so soon to plan for wedding.. wtf..I think this probability lesser considering we just started our relationship for like xx months). We did discuss (little bit here and there) on below topics somehow somewhere.

So back to the question what will you consider and when do you think you’re ready to get marry?

1) When you understand your partner well enough to be with him/her for the rest of your life?
Question
a. How long is long enough for you to know your partner? 1 year? 2 years? 3 years? 4 years? 5 years or longer 10 years maybe? =.=”
b. You know him/her well now, doesn’t meant he/she won’t change when time pass by considering the environmental changes such as career, friends, family, etc etc.

2) When your partner financially ready to build a family?
Question
a. Buy house need money
b. Wedding need money
c. House renovation need money
d. Buying furniture need money
e. Give birth/ raise a baby need money
Conclusion: all need money wtf… $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

3) When you emotionally ready to be a husband/wife?
Question
a. When you will ready to take the responsibilities to become a husband/wife?
b. When you will ready to take the responsibilities to become a daddy/mummy?

4) When is your family ready to accept new member as part of their family?
Question
a. Will you continue to marry the guy/gal if your family did show somehow dislike or complains?
b. What you will do if he/she failed to blend well into your family culture?
c. What will you do to make he/she to at least meet the requirement of your parents?

@_@ So many things to consider isn’t it? There are so many things to be taken care off before he pop the question “Will you marry me?” or before she answer “I do”.

I think there will be a lot of things to consider when you already become someone’s son in law/daughter in law, someone’s wife/someone’s husband such as you will need to change the priority for the component in your life once you committed to family. So up for you to think whether when will you get ready to get marry! ^^ For me, I will say it will be the time when it's time, when it's not the time, no point pushing everything to be ASAP ^^

:: The Countess Night ::

Joining his friends for makan-makan, minum minum and chatting chatting session again this weekend. Not sure why but Pei yoong will be buying everyone of us for dinner this weekend, and Vincent bring me along (not sure why too... like tumpang makan sekali =.=")......

She suggested The Countess, Plaza Kelana Jaya as the venue for the night and requested us to wear jeans. According to her, there will be alot of mosquitoes flying around looking for victims. I thought the place is a place which located inside a jungle or trees that's why alot of mosquitoes, but who knows it is a office or commercials building when we reach there. *sweat***

Sighhh,sad thing I caught flu for the whole night and all my make up (around nose area) melted or being disposed together with my "wan tan". I think I made at least 50 pcs of "wan tan" for the night. Sighhhhh.. And he even claimed I looks like clown (with the red nose).... Sighhhh... And good thing is he being the tissue provider passing me the tissue all along the night. Kesiannnnnyerrrrr.....

And not sure why, I looks so bloated that night from the photos I've taken, maybe because I sneeze too much causing the air went inside my body (hahahaha!! Putting myself into denial mode that I'm fat =.="") or I memang that bloated all the while (ack to reality that I'm fat =.="""").

Anyway, the place quite cosy and comfortable but the food portion is abit small and I think most of us can't really fill up our stomach. And the service sucks too! Pei Yoong told us, that one few working staff whereby the boss is the chef also the bartender alsdo the waiter. No wonder it took them so long to serve our dishes. We can't even find someone , any staff to help us to take photo ended up thanks to my creativity, we manage to take a group photo using stack cups and ash-tray! hahahahaaha! Thanks Pei yoong for the treats! :)

#1 Our duet photo, taken before departing


#2 2nd shot.. nicer? @_@


#3 My chicken spaghetti

#4 The soup, taste great, but too dark, can't see what kind of soup is that..


#5 Lemon Tea and Carrot Juice


#6 The Countess


#7 Ok, photo shooting time! Sighhh, still can't figure out how to use the new T700 camera! Sighhh


#8 Trying to act cute >.<
#9 WOw!!!!! @_@


#10 my head.. gone! T_T


#11 Another couple in the house, Vivien and Wei Fong


#13 Newly met... Err..forgot their name =.=""


#14 us... again, my head half gone..


#15 Me with the soup.. and my clown nose


#16 Another one..


#17 VTSL in red.. ^^


#18 Us... standing and me still holding tissue to whenever I go.. so chamm!


#19 guys in red!! like Chinese New Year! hahaha


#20 All gals in the house!! ^^

:: Am I too heavy? ::

Something funny happen today. The story begin when both of us (VTSL and ETSL) went to Maybank to withdraw money. So, as usual both us go inside, and walk out after withdraw our money. All out of sudden, I shouted "AHHHHHHHHHH!!!"

Vincent shocked and turn his head towards me and ask "Why?!".. Then he notice there is one shoe in front of his. =.=""" Yes, my shoe! A side of my shoe flewn into his side because the shoe string spoiled and my toe failed to grab on the shoe and there it goes flying! hahahahahah! So funny... There is no way at all I can grab my shoe (using my toes) and continue walking. Trying to slide my feet over the shoe, sliding towards to the car which was parked across the road. What make it worst, there is a staircase. Alamak!!!!

I tried to remove my shoe and jump over, across the road, but all out of sudden he offered to carry me over his back, to cross the road moving towards our car so I do not need to act like "orang cacat" jumping around. And so I immediatelt hop over his shoulder/back and he started to carry me over. Hahahaha! I can feel the heavy, the burden of me over his back. You know la, he is not BIGGGGGGGGGG enough to carry overweight me! HHAHAHAHAHAHHHA! What make it worst, there were so many cars passing by delaying the time we can cross over the road. hahahahah! And he need to carry overweight me for sometime. =.=""""""""

Once he seated me in the car, I said :
"I need to reduce weight already, else you can't carry me on our wedding day!"
And how dare he said :
"Yalo.... So you cannot increase any more weight from now on till our wedding day"
I continue to scold him :
"Cis... You can't train yourself to be stronger enough to carry me ke meh?"
He replied :
"Cannot =.= *sweat*"

Tsk Tsk Tsk.. gals like to hear lies ke ma!!! =.=" He should answer :
"Dear.. I will still carry you for my whole life no matter you're as fat as pig or as heavy as the rock!"

Hahahahah! Seeeeee... very ideal answer it? Eventhough it sounds so fake, but I bet every gal will buy it! hahahahahhaah! But I'm seriously happy when I'm actually behind his back eventhough I can feel his body shaking while crossing me over (means I'm heavy). Anyway, thanks dear... Muaksssss....

I think I'm getting fatter (physically not on weight), maybe due to late dinner and supper recently. He also claim he's getting fatter as he always finish the leftover food by me. I think I really need to reduce my weight regardless whether he can carry me or not in future. =____=".

:: Our 1st exposure as couple ::

Jeng Jeng Jeng...... As self explanatory on the title, the event was the 1st event where we going out as couple meeting his friends officially introducing me as Vincent Tang Siong Loong's girl friend.

Frankly speaking, I'm quite nervous, as I do not know how his friends will think of me. What they will say about me? My look? My characteristic? Whether do we match? Or are his female friemds prettier than me? LOL!!! I've struggle for sometime before really decided to join Vincent and his friends for celebrating the birthday of one of his friend. Worry it will be too early for us to officially to be announced as couple. I still remember we went to Times Square that evening and he keep on asking me to join while I busy asking around whether anyone got any activites for me that night. However, I decided to join him anyway at the end after failure to find any activites. ^^


Furthermore, Vincent never really propose to me asking me to be his girlfriend yet. I mean seriously asking me "Will you be my girlfriend"? Errrrr... yes he still owe me something, owe me a proposal, a romantic proposal, a suprise proposal for asking me to be his girlfriend.....sighhhhhhhhh......What take him so slow lerrrr...I guess this matter not important to him anymore since anyhow we already started to do things which does by a normal couple. Sighhhhh...... Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*longgggggggggggg sighhhhhhhhhhh****

Anyway, back to the story. So at the end,I decided to join Vincent for his friend, Connie's birthday celebration at The Library, Damansara on 26th Jun 2010. I wore the new dress I bought from Times Square, while he wore the new shirt he bought from Time Square too! hahahaha! Yeap, he looks great in that shirt! So damn yau yeng! hahahahhah!


Upon reaching his house, we started to groom ourself, take bath and I touch-up my make and changing dress. He seems impress or somehow suprise seeing me in dress (maybe first time seeing me with a proper dress gua)... He keep in saying how nice and pretty I was with the dress with the make up. *blushing* Yes, I felt flattered abit hearing his comments. U know la well, gal really like to hear such compliments one! Hahahahahah! So for those guys other there, remember to praise how pretty is your girlfriend eventhough they are not! LOL!


So we reach The Library around 9:30pm late 1 hour , as the actual promised time was 830pm. We thought we are the latest one to arrive, and never know we still need to hang another 30-45minutes waiting for the others to reach. T_T Vincent never really introduce me as his girlfriend, but I guess since we are holding hand upon reaching so I guess it should obvious enough for other to see =.=""""


As for me, this is the 1st time meeting his friends, meeting his bunch of friends which consists of more gals than guys -.-"" We chill out by drinking beer, chit-chatting abit and spent most of the time taking photos and camwhoring! hahahahaha! Just like me...!


His friends are friendly and easy-going type, so no problem for me to mingle with them as we had the same interest, CAMWHORING and PHOTOSHOOTING! ^^ And glad that they did took quite a number of photos of me and Vincent. Adding more photos to our collections. Some of them really good and even took some intimate photos of us. @_@ We even took the most pretty photo of us (so far) that night. We used that picture as our phone wallpapers as both of us really looks good! *angkat bakul sendiri* hahahha! We continue our night with yum cha session at Taman Megah, and hang out until 4am! @_@ And I need to wake up to tuition at 10am =.=""" Apa lagi, leng leng teacher ling become panda teacher ling lo..


Overall, still glad and felt comfort I can go along with his friends. Phewwwwwwwwwww!!! ^^

Our pretty duet photo..How was it? Nice ^^


His buddy...


Taking photo with everyone, introducing Pei Yoong


With another couple in the house


Re-take changing pose :P


Alamak.. again.. while eating supper/breakfast at Taman Megah


This is quite intimate photo, but it would be better if he place his hand on my shoulder instead of my waist= .=


This one not bad..


I look weird, look on my leg -.-""


With birthday gal, Connie


Our drink for the night, re-order another few cups at the end


The gals for the night! ^^